Wednesday, February 25, 2009
I love jogging...
...but its bit quite some time since i have to jog under pressure to achieve a certain timing. just on monday i went to run around the camp using the 2.4km route. the run can be described as a mental torture as i tried my best to ignore the electric signals that come from the nerves of my legs and the bursting of my lungs and Instead, have to focus on keeping a constant fast pace. the end result? 10 seconds off gold timing. argh, super cui liaoz.
'its kinda a fact of life that people rate you for what you do, especially what you do wrongly, rather than who you are.' Comment on this. pls =)
sounds like a gp question? ya, but thats the question i had this week.
9:21 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
today i have the auto-transmission car lesson. when the instructor say that i just have to set go the brake and the car will move by itself when in stationary position, i wanted to say stop kidding, but the car really moved. lol. quite fun la, but i better stick to manual car for the time being and pass my test first.
watched k20 today. while the plot was totally retarded, the anime-like speech dialogue and action sequence made everyone in the theatre laughing. basically the main character (takeshi) will never die no matter what, kinda like naruto, and many other characters are also behaving in the anime-like stupid way and expression. one sentence i still remembered though, and it wasnt funny. '
you just stand in your safety position to try to give help. i hate hypocrites like you!'meeting up with sm and julie...well i kinda thought that since we havent met for such a long time, their habit of lateness might change. maybe not. haha. it kinda becomes a lecture for me about different types of mascara, what kind of methods skin products company will do in order to attract girls to spend money on them etc etc. saw a few nice items though....
10:01 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009
why cant life be simpler?
i wished i can just blog in a way such that i can express my views accurately, using real terms etc, but den im sure some spy from the top who have too much free time will be able to somehow find my blog and charged me for exposing 'secrets'. oh well. i shall address issues in principle aspects den, while not refering to anyone. don't understand what im talking about? its okay, just continue to read the next paragraph.
rule of thumb that i have learn during this busy and probably the lousiest week of my life:
1)
when someone thinks im at fault, never try to explain too much, either just say 'yes' or 'no', or even better, give a solution so that the fault can be addressed. especially to those who are big, or those who Thinks they are big. explanation will only appear as excuses to them. i understand myself as someone who wans to explain himself but cant explain clearly enough, so its better if i just shut up.
2)
if i wan to do something, either do it all the way or not at all.quite self-explanatory. i realised i don't have 'emergency signal' in my head, that is, if something is needed to be done, i would do it with a effort i usually give with all things, emergency or not. perseverance and mental strength is kinda lacking in me. shagged or not, sweating or dirty, think through things calmly, find a solution from there and focus on the matter at hand.
3)
true friends help out during real times of emergency, so really appreciate and cherish them.without them, i would have probably kena more punishments.
4)
ask instructions from the highest command to prevent contradictions. this's important especially for the military context. rank is kinda almost everything, even though i know it isnt, but still to prevent more trouble for myself, this is probably what i should do.
about the expired item that i have failed to check, all i can say to defend myself is that i didn't know i have to open the box and check the contents, thus have no way of knowing that the thing has expired. if i get punishment, it can only be unluckyness, not the lack of responsibility, so my conscience is clear.
sometimes i feel that im standing and swaying on the line between good and bad. the problem is i dunno which side im closer to now. change is the only constant, but if only i can know what are the good change and what are the bad change.
11:46 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
a peephole to the real world...
sometimes i cant help but feel the army environment in a functional unit is a prelude to what's to come when i enter the real working environment out there. my battery commander perform the same roles as a manager, my commanding-officer is probably the manager of all managers (forgot the term), and COA is probably the CEO etc etc. we have five day work week, free time after six, and we even have 14 days of leave per year.
some of the above statement can be argued, as some believe that Some senior army commanders are simply not as efficient or capable as real world managers, given that they are let loose to the real world, surely will they not survive. these opinions are contestable, and my only opinion is that while some are really @#$%^&*()_, other commanders, especially scholars and high-flyers, are really good leaders that we as junior commanders can emulate.
after spending three months in my unit, i could not help but observe the changes that some of my fellow trainees has undergone since becoming a 3sgt. one of my friends, who is usually quite smart and hardworking during trainee days, has became a valuable asset in my battery by always constantly being available to give help and get important work done using connections and his efficiency. however there are also some who think they have become someone great or as we coined it 'big fark'. those are the ones who order people around, push personal duties to other people, making excuses for everything etc etc. office politics has become the norm, with people pushing work to be done from one battery to the other battery, people whispering conspiciously during the dark plotting things... argh. and the thing that bothers me is that this is only the start of our working life and people can become so corrupted. in the real working environment, there will again be people who will be already deeply-ingrained with such corrupt-ness, so how to deal with them?
questions unanswered......
9:06 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
today was quite fun and interesting, though i have a feeling i have offended some and let down some.
thanks for bringing me there..
1:01 AM
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
hectic life..
tuesday was a freaking hell of a day.
phonecalls freak me out for the whole 15 hours plus that i was in the office, my men pestering me about guard duty forcasts, having a 'extremely motivated' duty officer that insists on every single rules and regulations, lastly settling my gun's signal and data communications on my own as my gun commander is not around to help me. oh and plus one more morning 3.6km run everyday from monday to friday.
i never expect life to be so hectic after they came back from new zealand. now i have a phobia of the constantly-ringing telephone.
even worse, the senior batch of specialists that is exactly one year older den me come into the office waving their pink ICs in front of our noses and saying the infamous statement 'ORD LOH!'. not the i have any qualms with that as i would most probably do that when its my turn to ord, but it just sucks to know that i would have to suck it for one more year.
'enjoy army, make buddies, make full use of the time to improve.' i told myself.
trying hard.
9:06 PM
Sunday, February 08, 2009
the good old days...
"now kids, what do you have to do before you eat?"
*silence.
'sing birthday song?'
"no its to WASH YOUR HANDS!"
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musical chairs, saying Thank Yous loudly, having happy meals in macdonalds seemed like activities done so long ago during childhood times. hey but wait, didn't this happened three days ago?
happy 20th yuxin~.
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rise of the lycans reminds me of some epic movie reminiscence of LOTR in which the characters spoke complex english for simple phrases. im sure the m18 rating is not because of the semi-nude scenes that happened halfway into the movie, but because of the amazing amount of blood, gore, heads tearing out of bodies with an amazing splash of dark red cocktail....
nowadays when i made silent promises to myself, i did not fulfil it even though the pre-requsities have been met surprisingly (or isit fate?). why cant i force myself to have the knack of grabbing opportunities?
9:32 PM
Friday, February 06, 2009
so much, yet so little
actually there are a lots of things to blog about, but a sudden interruption knocked all my thoughts haywired..
1:50 AM
Sunday, February 01, 2009
A nice weekend, perhaps?Anne hathaway's eyes looked kinda too big. okay, sorry for my randomness.
but bride wars is really quite interesting, perhaps another perspective about marriage + friendships and the fun and dirty parts about it.
getting dirty and oily with charcoal and butter was quite fulfiling during the bbq, but the best part about saturday evening was the pure fun and enjoyment of running around west coast park trying to make a kite fly, and swinging from platform to platform using the kids version of flying fox. i havent experienced that kind of enjoyment for quite a long time already.
regarding the message, well, i was quite sure morally, that person is wrong in doing that. it seems like a cowardly way out for a solution. but of cuz im dun face the situation, so i just cant assume anything. kinda makes me wonder what kind of reaction i will have if what's happened to him happen to me...to tell ya the truth, i don't know.
thanks for the cookies =)
9:32 PM